By: Alana Hodge.
I’ve never been one to follow the crowd. Before my conversion to Jesus Christ, I knew I wanted to be different but I didn’t know what was motivating me to be different. After my conversion, I knew exactly what this motivation was. Giving my life to the Lord has been the best decision I have ever made. It has given meaning and purpose to my life; a life which looked fine on the outside but was pretty empty on the inside.
I remember sitting in my first CCO faith study thinking to myself, “I hope God doesn’t call me to be a CCO missionary.” I was terrified what the people in my life would say. I didn’t think it was possible. But I felt a little nudge. I felt God calling me to a deeper trust in Him. I was convicted that the way I was living out faith in my life wasn’t good enough. There was something more I was supposed to do. Honestly, I didn’t know where I was being led, but I prayed that God would show me the way.
I decided to actively chose to do more for God. I prayed when I didn’t feel like praying, I went to Mass when I didn’t feel like going, and I even went on mission trips when there was strong internal and external resistance. All the while, I trusted that God was make things clear if I showed him in my actions that I was serious about wanting to know Him and his will for my life.
While completing a Masters in vocal performance, I realized that I was incredibly blessed to study something that I really loved doing. However, music doesn’t fulfill me like sharing the Gospel message did. Nothing in the world compares to seeing someone realize the power of God’s individual love for them. Nothing, absolutely nothing, can match watching someone experience the joy and peace of really knowing Jesus Christ.
This call that God has put on my life is not something I ever could have dreamed of! Not only is it very possible but it is the most fulfilled I have ever been. Best of all, it is through proclaiming Jesus, and loving my brothers and sisters, that I encounter Him more intimately. I never thought my life would look like it does now but I wouldn’t have it any other way. With God, all things are possible. Go ahead, and dare to be different! Ask Him to give you the amazing plan that he has for you, and only you!